If you watch me from the distance than you can see the person who takes life aggressive, person who wants to catch all of benefits the life brings. You can also see the girl who knows what she wants and do whatever she wants. Am I right? In fact there is nothing further from the truth. My aggression, power and fast life come from two reasons.
Sooo... some time ago I had maniacally thoughts about death. Than after few months, real death occurred like ironical prove of my frighten. Somehow it really touched me even we had a quite rare contact. I cannot stop thinking about it. It goes back to me regularly and pushes me to do many strange things. I hope they are not dangerous.
It is not because i am afraid of death. I just realize that it is close, everyday...stupid? Maybe...

I am still listening a lot of piano music.

This photo I took on the last dubstep party in Kraków in a place named Krzysztofory.

the nature of Ghosts

Ghosts are:

untouchable,

fragile,

instanteous,

fascinating,

dangerous,

so it is better

to

Stay away.

Rain

Listening phenomenal cellists like Zoë Keating and Julia Kent. Running in rain, just because, without any reason. Stop and run again. Fulfillment. Neuroticism is the biggest gift I had received. Now I know what is my life about. Mix your tears with rain drops and you will get know it too.

...and the birds here are singing

...and after all these words i realized what is the title of my blog...funny.

Fighting

As in the title. Fighting with things which want to come back to me. Doing more than i can. It helps with being thoughtlessness. Once again someone told me that i am neurotic person, funny.